TO NEW BEGINNINGS

Heeey Faam! We are family right? Friends that became family, right? Family is just not blood , you dig? So we are going to do a thing that families do. Let it be known i consider you my siblings by extension. You see how you have a fight with your siblings and then go quiet for a while and bounce back with no formal apologies? You find a common thing to laugh about and the beef is gone, that's what family is. I am well aware i deserted you for a while, didn't pop up for Valentines even. As the self proclaimed creative I  am becoming, i went up to Himalayas for creative inspiration. Now who would be mad at a girl who has spent her mornings running for kilometres up the mountains seeking to be at peace within herself? The sunrise has been finding me on my yoga mat channeling the creative genius within all for you. Whether this happened in my daydreaming or is a deep desire of mine is absolutely irrelevant to the course here.

You recall me mentioning that this is basically an elite journal? Today is one of those days i give you exclusive access to my journal. This is as much for me as it is for anyone who reads it. I am one of this people who get excited about beginnings to an extent i know might be annoying. Well, I lack the enthusiasm to post 'Happy New Week', 'Hello March be Kind', 'New Year New Me' as religiously but viewing such actually excites me. Something rather disturbing happened on New Year's Eve last year. I take it that the pandemic and the hopelessness that 2020 served had a lot to do with it but it was all new. For the first time in my not so many years there was zero enthusiasm about a new year. In fact social media was awash with seemingly intellectual quotes on how time is an abstract concept created by carbon based life forms to monitor their on going decay .

I will not get myself entangled in the science and philosophy of this quote but i strongly believe that though it be an abstraction, it is much needed in our human consciousness in order to relate cause and effect. There is a beauty in the possibilities that a new beginning presents; whether it be a new day, month, birthday, or even a new job. It is this hope of beginnings that i wish to protect against negativity by all means. All the above occasions present us humans with opportunities to start a fresh, to try again, to chase our dreams and to strive to become better people.

One of our values here in this family, as you may already be aware , is that we always strive to get as many sides of a story as there could possibly be. While my perception of beginnings is all rosy and dreamy, it sadly is not exactly the reality. Have you tried to venture into a new business? What did your first day at work feel like? I am well aware of the thought process that goes into starting something new. The shift from your normal and the comfort and delving into the unknown is a difficult but very necessary process for growth. There is no way to test an idea besides starting on its implementation.

The biggest impediment we face is the fear of the unknown, stepping into uncharted waters. This requires a level of vulnerability from us. We should be ready to learn, fail at first till we figure it out. The goal is to never forget what you are driving towards and you will not get lost at sea. A personal fear is that of my inability to meet the rising expectation. We humans tend to flatter ourselves that the world has an expectation of what we ought to be and this is a fallacy. The reality is that there is no expectation as the world does not even know what you will bring forth. In any case, the only expectation is that you become your authentic self. In essence, you are the only one stopping yourself.

Say you listen to this wisdom from this mini oracle shrine and actually start. Whether you start afraid, with less than you think you need, you started and that is the biggest step. Now allow me to decode a feeling a lot of us often get and sometimes that causes us to shrink and shy away from owning our greatness. A lot of intelligent, capable , gifted and bright people have a  hard time owning their accomplishments and often feel like they are fooling people. I know you have ever worked so hard and conquered your fears to get into a space you've always desired but suddenly felt like a fraud once you got there. You lived in constant fear that someone will eventually discover that you don't belong there. This is called Imposter Syndrome.

Essentially Imposter Syndrome is constantly feeling like you are an impostor in your own life.On one hand, I see it as a positive reminder that you are still a work in progress, getting better daily and entering spaces you did not see yourself entering. On the other hand, it could cause us not to walk into the greatness we very much deserve. The only way to overcome Imposter Syndrome is to think your way out of it . You need to unlearn any beliefs on your thoughts, ideas and experiences not being relevant of you or not belonging to the success you come to.

Now go ahead and start! I am rooting for you. ( Remember you are a carbon based life form and the decay is in process👀 )